Awake & Unafraid

gleeson666:

do you ever get into one of those situations where you’re like “I need to stop hating this particular person it’s not going to get me anywhere I’m just going to grow up and move on with my life” but then they do the tiniest thing to piss you off and then you’re like “nope fuck you right off I want to throw you off a bridge”

(via luminakit)

This fucking sucks

a lot of my friends are going to the colleges of their dreams and even though I was accepted to mine, I can’t go. I know it’s the smarter decision in the long run and I know I have to have a back-up plan and I can’t go directly into just acting because it’s such a competitive field but OBVIOUSLY I’m good enough. I just wish I could take that risk and not have to worry about the ‘what-ifs’

Before AADA came into the picture, Longwood was my top choice and it’s an amazing school and I adore it but I got a glimpse of New York and the Academy and I fell in love. It’s like seeing exactly where and how you want your life to be and then being told you can’t have it.

it just fucking sucks.

one of my best friends got accepted at Yale even though he was so sure he would get deferred and he’s going. another friend of mine got accepted at CNU’s music program super last minute, YESTERDAY to be exact, even after she had already paid her deposit to a different school, her mom is being super supportive and she’s going. and I have tons of other friends that also got accepted at the school of their dreams and they are all going.

Don’t get me wrong, I couldn’t be happier for them but it’s just hard to see everyone’s lives falling into place now and I just feel like mine is so far away.